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I think the reason why Im questioning my self is thru lack of work
Oh is that all

, that problem is everywhere and affecting a lot of trades and whilst its worrying, I wouldn't take it personally.
Whilst I appreciate that there are still areas doing well and some people are genuinely busy, there are also others who used to be busy, but aren't busy now! and plenty of people who fall somewhere between the two but always have to be 'seen' to be busier than everybody else and who bend truth and reality to various degrees

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The Wedding Industry is stagnant and the leisure industry has struggled since the smoking ban, followed by a recession, of course its going to have a huge knock on effect to those industries like ours which are reliant on them. Some areas will be affected more than others, but a great number of services will be hit in some way, even if they won't admit it.
If Weddings are your main market, then a good indication as to how well your market is doing, is to look at how well other Wedding Services are doing. For example, i've noticed a lot of wedding venues in this area have slashed their prices and even joined the growing bandwagon of the Wedding Package market

. A glance at the many Wedding magazines will show lots of venues still advertising late availability, often at reduced prices, and words on ads like 'Still offering availability for some dates in 2010' is often marketingesque for 'Help, we need some work'
Often these are venues which were booked solid for 12 or 18 months at a time, 3 years ago, now you could probably get married in some of them next week

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If thats all thats making you question your future on a professional level then don't beat yourself up over it, a lot of us are in the same boat.